Ah Angela, I'm a well known old softie - I love a bit of romance, as Jen might confirm. Like ValnBill, Jen and I are childhood sweethearts who never "grew up" and have been married to each other for 40+ years. Faithful to the end and I will never be involved with anyone else, whatever happens. But most of my dearest friends are women. I have relationships with so many women who love me and whom I love back, but none will ever be sexual.
If I have an answer to your post, it is this. Don't have expectations, just follow your heart and see what happens. You will know what is right. It's how I try to be when I'm at home, in Arillas, or on our forum.
Phil